Mae has a problem each time that I get on my computer in my room. I have been looking for new jobs and of course everything has to be submitted on line. Night before last I was submitting resumes to several companies and in my room she came demanding to know why I was on the computer. We have had this conversation over and over and over. At least 100 times in the past..literally. I use the computer for bloggins, looking for job, reading CNN and doing research. All the normal things anyone would use the computer for. I told her I was looking for jobs and of course she again went on and on. I asked her what was it that she did not understand. The days of going door to door looking for jobs is no more in our age of advanced technology. Finally after 30 minutes of harrassment she left me alone. The time? About 1:30 AM in the morning.
Well last night about 9:30 pm I was in my room watching Miami Vice and in she comes. Again about the computer and what I am doing looking for jobs and on and on and on. All sorts of crazy things, like I was trying to take her house and that was why I moved in with her. I reminded her again that the only reason I moved in was because she requested and demanded it. My father died in December 2006 and and she was asking for several months that we move in and we finally did in March of 2007. She literally would say things like your father would want you to move in with her and take care of her. It is what your father would have wanted. She claims I was the one who kept asking to move in. Wrong!
Then she began the whole thing about having to move out. I told her I was working on it but with my work hours of Monday-Friday 8:30 -6:00, I will need to request time off to look. AND that I had done that for next week. In the very next breath she said that she did not understand why I just did not take a few hours off to look. Are we on two different planets? I told her that was just what I said and did she not HEAR that?
The problem is she has all these preconcieved notions and totally wrong assumptions. She does not truly listen to anything I actually say. Then she began to tell me the professions I could have gone into. Crazy. I have been to college, graduated with honors, had great, well paying jobs that I have had for long term. The last job I just left, I had been there for 10 years. I have been successful in all my jobs. It was just spiralling into absolute madness. It is like she things I am in high school just starting out? Finally I told her that I didnot need any help or advice with my career search or possible change. She finally said she was DONE. Yet she continued on. THen I said that if she was done why was she still talking and standing in the door of my room? 30 minute later she left.
I do not get it. If I choose to look for a new job, how else am I to get one unless I look for one? Why all the chaos when I do look for one. I almost get the feeling she does not want me to get a new job with better pay because I will be able to move out. I won’t be there for her to yell at. She really will have to do something for herself. Right now I take care of the dog, garbage on garbage day, cooking, getting the newspaper, doing her gardening and driving her to all her doctor appointments and shopping trips to the mall and whatever on the weekends.
As she was leaving I told her that she was totally crazy…really crazy. The things she was coming up with were so bizarre and way out in left field. And…where she was getting it all from, I had no idea. She literally begins the verbal attack as soon as I walk in the door. I do nothing but say hello and it begins. I never seek her out. She is always there waiting for me in attack mode 24 hours aday.
One of the most bizarre things she consistenly says and has said throughout the years? She claims that I do not want her hair to grow. What the hell do you say to that?